3 weeks down

of this boring job.

the people are much nicer now...so that's ok. GB is still a GB, but whatev. life continues.

i just wish that for the next few weeks, that life would continue a little faster. i am tired of this job, and tired of living in one room...don't get me wrong, i appreciate it, but i need some spaaace!!

after 3 weeks of work, and meeting people every day, and getting asked the same questions like, everyday, i am now going to introduce myself in this fashion everytime i meet someone.

Hello! my name is H and i go to Carleton university, for pychology, and i love it, and i'm in my second year. i do not live in residence, and yes this past winter was ridiculous. i am from brockville and this is my summer job. yes i like brockville, and indeed we have had a whole lotta rain! this house is lovely, and indeed it is hot in here.

nice to meet you, have a lovely day.

holy cow.

last night was pretty damn cute. me and the manfriend rented some movies, and then got some candy. we came home, put on the "life of brian" which was quite hilarious. then, we both fell asleep for like 3 hours. i would wake up every once in a while, and he would still be sleeping very cutely, and i would take a moment to appreciate how adorable he is, and then fall back asleep myself.

it was lovely.

tonight i am going to see mamma mia. it will either be really great, or really terrible. we shall see.

the Love Paradox

Loving someone is a pretty funny thing.

and i don't mean "omg he's so cute, i like totally love him" love.

i mean, "your smile makes a horrible day disappear, your hugs are my cure all medicine, i would die for you, because i would die without you" love.

the funny thing about this kind of love is the fear that comes with it. i don't even mean the fear of betrayal, heartbreak, or infidelity. i mean the fear of

i don't think i could ever smile again, if one day you were gone.

the deeper you love, the deeper you fear. the more someone completes you, the more you realize how incomplete you would be without them.

you hear about horrible things that happen in this world, and it makes you sick to think that something like that could happen to someone you love.

when one feeling intensifies, so does another. it's physics. every action creates an opposite and equal reaction. the more you have, the more you have to lose.

you're happy to have such a wonderful and perfect love, but you fear the possibility of something someday taking it away.

the more you have it, the more you need it, and the more you realize that there's no going back...