sometimes...

some days i miss the simplicity that is childhood

or perhaps the simplicity that used to be childhood.

back when the meaning of a sunny day was playing at the park, and eating ice cream cones and riding your bike in circles because it was fun.

when you didn't wonder where your food came from, or how much it cost to turn the lights on.

when the future seemed a million miles away, and wondering what you would be when you grew up was like a dream instead of a daily deliberation.

before understanding the complexity of concepts like trust, honesty, or love.

before learning that fairy tales are only for books and movies

when death seemed like a scary myth, meant to prevent you from running across the road without your mommy holding your hand

before realism takes over your heart, and you know that dreams don't always come true.

before you know you will have to cry, sweat and bleed for everything you want.

before you know that life is a ride that can take you places where you don't want to go.

isn't 20 a little young to be jaded?